Thursday, April 2, 2009

Flutters where are you?!

I am 14 weeks today, hurray! I never thought I would make it this far I can't believe that I am still pregnant, the idea still blows my mind. I am now retiring almost all of my old pants, I have a few of my "fat pants" left that I can still wear. It's hard being in the in between stage, mat pants are almost too big and my old pants are too small.

Everyday I lay in bed waiting for the flutters, at every moment of down time I wait to see if I feel anything. I thought I might of felt a little flutter last week, but nothing since. I am so excited for the day that I can call Blair and say that I felt the baby move! At night I lay on my back and can actually run my hand across my stomach and feel where my uterus is, It's like this large ball that was never there before. Sometimes I will poke at my uterus (softly) to try and get baby to move, it worked at the NT Scan so I figured it should work at home. Baby could be kicking back, but I can't feel it yet. I guess I just have to be patient. I have waited this long, what's a few more weeks?

I am sure everyone goes through this with every pregnancy, but I am starting to panic about money. I know this baby was planned and we were more than ready for it but are we really? I am scared that we aren't going to make ends meat while I am on mat leave, it doesn't help that we are still catching up on the cost of treatments, the mistake of Blair working for IG and other things throughout the year that mysteriously popped up. I have to keep reminding myself that we aren't poor, we will manage somehow!

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