Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Pity Party for 1

I have been going through a little depression lately. Not sure if it's more post partum, or just everyday blues.

I have been feeling left out of everything. My family doesn't seem to have time for us, Blair's family doesn't have time for us. And when we do see everyone we end up sitting at the "children's table" and being excluded from the conversation.

I am very lonely and missing my family right now. I know Blair feels the same about his. I wish things were not the way they are, I wish we could feel welcome at family gatherings and that sometimes they could show an interest in our daughter. We are never invited to family outings and we seem to be forgotten for even a quick phone call or chat.

Also I guess I expected to have more everyday visitors while on mat leave, but it seems that in order to see anyone I need to go to them. I haven't had anyone to my home for coffee in months and some days you just feel like staying home and not packing up a baby just for a visit.

Now that Kaiya is napping longer I have more free time to just be lonely. This is not how I saw my mat leave going.


  1. I totally understand where you are coming from. It is really hard when all you ever want is to be included, but it seems like people won't let that happen. I know that it may not mean that much, but Marcus and I love hanging out with you guys, and I definitely think of you as my family. If you ever need someone to talk to, or even someone just to hang out and have fun with, let me know. =)
    Lots of love.

  2. I know how you feel too Kim to an extent. Nobody wants to come to my house to visit. But they all want me to pack up my baby, her bottles, and her diapers to go see them!!!! Not to mention that some family doesn't even care if I come, just make sure to bring Sofia they say!! I'm hoping for a better summer!