I have been going through a little depression lately. Not sure if it's more post partum, or just everyday blues.
I have been feeling left out of everything. My family doesn't seem to have time for us, Blair's family doesn't have time for us. And when we do see everyone we end up sitting at the "children's table" and being excluded from the conversation.
I am very lonely and missing my family right now. I know Blair feels the same about his. I wish things were not the way they are, I wish we could feel welcome at family gatherings and that sometimes they could show an interest in our daughter. We are never invited to family outings and we seem to be forgotten for even a quick phone call or chat.
Also I guess I expected to have more everyday visitors while on mat leave, but it seems that in order to see anyone I need to go to them. I haven't had anyone to my home for coffee in months and some days you just feel like staying home and not packing up a baby just for a visit.
Now that Kaiya is napping longer I have more free time to just be lonely. This is not how I saw my mat leave going.