I am all for going green

Heck my husband and I are all over that shit. We recycle everything, use earth friendly products and up till last week we used cloth diapers. But I am so sick of hearing about how my laundry soap is going to burn my babies skin, and how drinking a can of pop is going to rot me from the inside out. I get it, the crap we use on a regular basis is gross and is filled with harsh chemicals that is toxic to use. Guess what, I do not have cancer, my baby still is wearing all her skin and neither me or my husband are chronically ill.
I am just saying that sometimes ignorance is bliss and I do love a good orange pop every now and again.

Vaccinations tomorrow

And a very uncomfortable encounter with my sisters ex husband awaits! Apparently we some how made appointments on the exact same day, back to back for vaccinations with our kids and I just found out this morning. I will be seeing my sis and little nephew tomorrow morning, but my brother in-law is scheduled to be present as well. Gross! I haven't seen him since almost their separation back in October and the reunion will not be a very sweet one. He is a piece of work that man, and I could care less if I ever saw him again. But I do have to remember that he is my nephews father and he will always be there (unless he by chance happens to die in a plane crash or sign off his rights as the father and both are very unlikely).
All I have to say is...... awkward!!

Any day now

And she will be crawling. Yikes!!!

I went into this evening day dreaming of a bubble bath with wine, and wound up on the couch with a beer.

If we still lived in the city....

There is no way I could look out my back door and see deer galloping through the farmers field.

My baby has a voice!

At least in the form of sign language. Kaiya made her first sign on Sunday. It was almost as exciting for us as when she rolled, we have been signing to her almost since birth and all our hard work has paid off. Of course her first sign was milk (opening and closing of her fist) But just like most babies Kaiya has gotten her sign confused. She is using milk as Mommy. Too cute!!! When she wants me she makes the sign, and also she is practicing it so she is randomly making it to show us. It is fantastic! Yay Kaiya... keep signing :)

My first Blogger award!

Oh I feel so special :) Thanks to Angela over at Craving Cupcakes I received my very first blogger award, yay! So the rules is I have to list 7 things about myself then pass the award onto 7 other bloggers. Here goes:

1. I love water. I could swim all day! I love lakes, oceans, rivers, anything! I am not picky. I would live my life under water if I had gills.

2. My weakness is gummy candies.

3. I secretly wish I was a novelist.

4. I cannot sing, I get my dog howling when I try.

5. I would love to see Africa but I am a very lousy traveller. I get all bitchy and stuff (even driving to Saskatchewan to visit family stresses me out).

6. I have an urge to garden all the time. I need to grow things, and I have recently discovered that I can grow almost anything. It does not look like I will be getting a garden this year so I am weeping inside.

7. I hate working out. Getting sweaty and having my heart race is not my definition of a good time. I would rather take a long walk than jog, hike slowly up a mountain then hop on an elliptical, and go for a bike ride instead of lifting weights. I am a free spirit damn it! No routine can hold me!

Now here is my list of fellow bloggers that I want to pass the award onto.

1. Heather at All The Little Pieces
2. Megan at Adventures with our little man
3. Adam and Cassie at A New Outlook
4. Laura at A Wholly Unremarkable Life
5. Ashley at My Life, Our Journey
6. Debbie at Deb and Jay
7. Sarah at Becoming a Mommy

One more sleep and one more day

Till I can find sanity again.

Happy Earth Day!

Rough Night

I have been sleep training Kaiya since Blair has left. I figured it might be easier if I didn't have to worry about her waking Blair up. I am trying to slowly eradicate one of her night feeds by decreasing the length of time that she feeds for by 1 minute and up till last night it wasn't going too bad. At 3:49 I got up to feed her, fed her for 6 minutes and then realized her diaper wasn't going to last till morning so regrettably I had to change her. This woke her right up and she then realized that she did not have a full tummy. Not only did I have to feed her after 30 minutes of crying and 10 minutes of rocking but still she was angry that I had woke her up so sh still cried. I think she finally settled just after 5:00. But it is 8:30 in the morning and she is still sleeping.

Catching some rays

It has been beautiful out here! If only the grass, trees and flowers could show their wonderful colors.

I survived day 1

And here is what I did today:

Since Kaiya has such a little head it's hard for us to find a hat that fits her so I decided to make her one.

Temporary single mom

So Blair is off for the week. I dropped him off a few hours ago at the airport to go for training in Toronto for work. Man am I already lonely. I stopped at my moms house for supper and just got home 30 minutes ago. I felt like crying when I walked in the door and realized my husband was here to greet me. I didn't think I would react so badly to his absence but here I am with a heavy heart and a beer to fill the void.

I just hope I can survive till Friday night without him.

Our Lap Dog

Just comes right up and lays on you. Too bad he's over 50 pounds and crushes your legs haha.

More Easter Pics

Insomnia is a b*tch!

I have been awake since 4 am (the last feed for Kaiya) and I finally just kicked off the covers and decided to get up and get a coffee. Oh I wish I could sleep!!!

My favorite time of the day!

BATH TIME!

Easter weekend #2

Yesterday we celebrated Easter with Blair's family. Everyone (including ourselves) were away the weekend before so we didn't get a chance to do it then. It was a nice evening, good food, good company and all the babes were awesome. I do wish that we could of stayed longer to chit chat more. It felt like as soon as we put the rug rat down to sleep and had time on our hands everyone scattered to the winds. It is so very difficult to have a great visit with the kids dancing around and our babes constantly needing attention. That's the wonderful thing about visiting family away. You can put the kids to bed and stay up all night drinking and talking.

Blair's brother just recently turned 20 and we missed the birthday celebration on Saturday. I wish we could of been there for him. You only turn 20 once! I think Blair is planning on taking him and Heather and myself out for a night, but it still doesn't make up for missing the real thing. I am finally feeling like things are getting better with Blair's family. We had a huge falling out a few years ago and have been struggling to mend it for a while. I think that the hatchet has been buried and we can feel more welcome at family get togethers, maybe we will be able to see his family more. God knows we don't see them enough. Once every couple months is not nearly enough.

Sh*tty day with a great ending

We spent most of the day in Urgent Care again. Not because Kaiya is sick, but because we thought we had broken her arm! Blair was kind enough to let me sleep in a little this morning and as I was coming downstairs to greet my babe and hubby I was welcomed with a lot of tears. Turned out Blair picked her up kinda awkwardly and ended up hearing a crack. Yikes!! After some snuggles and a feeding and a realization that she still isn't really using that arm and is super fussy when we touch it or move her we decide it's time to head off to the docs.

First we go to a walk-in clinic, where they say that it looks like nothing since she was moving it a bit but they will send her for x rays anyways. But we would have to wait a few days for the results... um not going to happen, so we either head over to the children's hospital in the city or to urgent care in our town. So off we go again. The same nurse and Doctor were working again and remembered us from Friday. Really nice to have a familiar face and someone who is starting to know Kaiya there (Blair said that's a bad thing since we don't want the people in the emergency center to know who we are, it means we are there way too much haha). They took one look at her and said "Yup her elbow is out". Turns out we had dislocated her elbow (very common in small children and so not a big deal) and all we needed to do was pop it back in. Easier said then done because as soon as it was popped in out came the water works but within minutes she was using that hand for everything again. What a stressful ordeal though. Here I was thinking we just got her out of one brace and now we are putting her into another :( Alls good, she doesn't even seem to be in any pain yay.

To end off the day she decided to surprise us with a roll! We have a roller! Both Blair and I were there as witnesses to the amazing event and we even got it on video the very second time. Go babe!

Nanooks new hang out

Didn't take him long to figure out who will be feeding him soon haha.

Loving my Converse One Stars!

Thank you Uncle Marcus and Auntie Heather!!

So babe is doing ok. It is an ear infection that she is plagued with, I am sure it's the first of many. Her nights have been torturous, she is waking every 1-2 hours screaming from the pain. Unfortunately there isn't anything we can do for her since we are already pumping her full of Tylenol and started her on her antibiotics. Poor little thing, it breaks my heart.

On a side note Blair has gone to my sisters house today to help pack up and move her things into my mom's. She is going through a messy seperation right now :( and her and her little guy are taking root at my folks till things are settled. I personally haven't lived at home since I was 19, I don't think I could do it now. Me and my family butt heads way too much for it to be plausible, good thing my husband would never cheat on me....... or I would have his penis.

April Showers

Hurray! Spring is here.....isn't it? This is what we woke up to this morning, yuck!!! And yes my back window is disgustingly dirty!

One sick babe

SO for the past few days our whole family has been fighting a really nasty cold. Sore throats, dripping noses, fevers, aches and pains you name it we've got it. Babe especially has been hit hard with this one. Yesterday her fever (her very first which is so scary) was bouncing around from the high 38's to the low 39's. She is a mess, fussy beyond belief, not sleeping and not letting me put her down. This morning she woke up with discharge coming from her left ear... yuck!! So now to add to her cold and fever, we have an ear infection. Hi - Ho... off to Urgent care we go!

I just recieved a phone call from my old boss asking if I was ready to come back to work yet. Umm nope, not yet :)

Pity Party for 1

I have been going through a little depression lately. Not sure if it's more post partum, or just everyday blues.

I have been feeling left out of everything. My family doesn't seem to have time for us, Blair's family doesn't have time for us. And when we do see everyone we end up sitting at the "children's table" and being excluded from the conversation.

I am very lonely and missing my family right now. I know Blair feels the same about his. I wish things were not the way they are, I wish we could feel welcome at family gatherings and that sometimes they could show an interest in our daughter. We are never invited to family outings and we seem to be forgotten for even a quick phone call or chat.

Also I guess I expected to have more everyday visitors while on mat leave, but it seems that in order to see anyone I need to go to them. I haven't had anyone to my home for coffee in months and some days you just feel like staying home and not packing up a baby just for a visit.

Now that Kaiya is napping longer I have more free time to just be lonely. This is not how I saw my mat leave going.

Easter pics

Rub a Dub with cousin Carson

Showing off my Easter dress

Getting kisses from all the puppies there.

Nanook looking so handsome

Stripped naked to eat my blueberries

Riding the quad with Papa!

The beautiful quilt great grandma sewed for me.

Over Protective?

So we had a little incident this weekend that I cannot get out of my head. A child at my Aunts house threw a toy at Kaiya's face. It hit her hard enough to leave a small bump and two little bruises above and below her eye. After this I kept a close eye on the other child and was scolded in front of everyone when I pushed him away when it appeared that he was going to step on her. I was embarrassed and angry about this and is making me second guess my decisions as a mom. Am I being over protective? Was I out of line for keeping danger from my child? I understand that yes they are going to get hurt and this is the first of many bruises, but if I can stop her from getting hurt should I not try? would the other mothers in the room that did the scolding and frowning of done the same if they were in my boat?

I wish babies came with instruction booklets.

There is no place like home

I love going home to the prairies to visit my extended family. I really don't get done there enough. I think the last time Blair and I made the drive was about 2 years ago (so we calculated on the drive down). I just enjoy seeing everyone, visiting and catching up, and meeting the new family members (babies and boyfriends)

One of the highlights of our trip I have to say is meeting my cousins baby girl Sofia. She is so cute!! She made my weekend. Her little character is so distinct already, my cousin is going to have so much fun with her.

Nanook and Kaiya both did well on the farms. Nanook was in his glory... new smells, new doggies, come and go as you please, chasing birds, meeting cows... yay! That was the life. He has been sleeping all day so far trying to recuperate from all the fun. Kaiya was just taking it all in. She was a little fussy on Saturday night (after not napping for hours) and she has started to play shy with people, but she has learned to pick up her soother and put it in all by herself. If only she can learn to not throw it out of the crib at night.

The only thing that was missing from my weekend was my little brother. I wish he could of made it down.

What a great weekend, but there is just no place like home :)

Wow what a week!

First off, Kalen got to come home from the hospital and Blair, Kaiya and I headed into the city to meet him. He is such a doll! He makes me smile even thinking of him. I wanted to take him home he is so precious. Megan, I promise not to steal your baby... really :)

Now Kaiya had her 6 months check up yesterday. Everything is perfect except a little constipation from the rice cereal she so loves (ouch!), diaper rash from the constipation (double ouch!) and she has a small head haha. I could of told you that. It is kinda in the family, my nephew has a small head too and has seen a pediatrician for it and everything checks out. When I say small I don't mean falling off the charts tiny, just in the 10th-25th percentile. Normally that's not a big deal but since she was in the 50th before our Doc just wants a second opinion (which I am so ok with since I would much rather have a doctor who is over thorough than not at all). As for weight and height she has also dropped a bit in the charts, she is 16 pounds and 1 ounce now and only 25 1/2inches long. Both in the 50th percentile. I am happy with these numbers

Now the best part! We had a follow up appointment with her specialist this afternoon about her hips and I am happy to report that she is now a normal brace free baby! No more harness during naps or at night hurray!!! I am thrilled!

So for this weekend it'll be quite an adventure since we are headed out of town to visit family 5 hours away. Not only will this be our first road trip with a baby (who hates car seats) but it'll be the first with Nanook too. We normally have Blair's folks watch him for us but they are away vacationing right now so we get to bring him along. I was just looking for an excuse any ways to take him to the farm... so much poop, so little time!!
So unfortunately I will have no access to a computer for the next few days since we are heading into the stone age. Not blogging might be a challenge haha.

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!

A line is a line

At least that's what I keep telling myself. I haven't been feeling that great the last few days and I just thought, what the heck! For fun I'll pee on a stick. Well....... It came out POSITIVE, I am in shock. We have been careful, but not that careful I guess and really it took us 2 years to get pregnant, who knew it could be an accident the second time. So for everyone out there in cyber space I would like to annouce that I am once again pregnant................. april fools hahaha